hmmmmm

making a new facebook is a pain in the arse :(
i am trying to re-add most of my friends but keep getting confused as to who ive added already and who i am missing, need to transfer all my photos across aswell seeing as they have finally re-activated my other account! but im still getting rid of that account as i have far too many people that i don't actually know on there!

i have the doctors on monday. that should be fun- not! i hate the bloody place, i always feel more and more ill as it gets closer. im pretty sure its an actual phobia. i remember going to carlisle hospital at one point last year, feeling fine but too nervous in bens car, then as soon as we were actually outside the hospital, throwing up ribena in a bush :/ hopefully i will not be too bad on monday. i just want to know whats wrong with me, i feel down all the time, im always tired, no motivation...i don't know just generally crap. im hoping its nothing serious anyway, might just need to get more exercise and eat more fruit and veg like keith said or i may be something worse like diabetic or anemic....i dont know. just want to get a blood test and find out. well, i dont want one but i think i may need one.

im currently wrapped in a blanket on the sofa watching two and a half men, trying to keep my mind off how crap i feel. no, wait its just turned to scrubs. anyways my throat is killing me today and im feeling rather sickish. my stomachs really hurting me too. *greatest conversation ever* <- the todd. it had to be put in!
urgh. anyways think im gonna curl up and read terry pratchett.
tatty bye

facebook whyyy?

hmmmm how peculiar......
i have been on facebook on my phone all day yet when i actually try logging in on the laptop as soon as kyle tries to talk to me *wa wa waaaaa* or some other depressing noise. facebook decides to argue with me, not letting me type back then turns round and says a big fat "fuck off" telling me my account is disabled!!
i am not entirely sure why. i don't think ive done anything that would result in me getting kicked of facebook but im annoyed. it may be because i had a mild (yes mild) go at jasons ex girl. he told me she was annoying him so i said to leave him alone and insullted her intelligence after she had typed back a few times. to be fair, she was completely illiterate and it took me a while to decode what she had actually typed to me. it was like reading hieroglyphics! no, tell a lie, they make more sense. i cant stand people that blatantly stupid!! oh well ill just make a new account if they dont let me back bloody onto my normal facebook. ill be extremely pissed off if that means ive lost all my photos though! must make a backup folder somewhere if they let me back on.

grrrrr stupid bloody facebook!!!!

pictures and shmit

ok so the last time i wrote my blog was just before my photo shoot with chezz by fran.
well i am rather pleased to say i enjoyed it muchly even though i was rather ill as i had the plague........
no not really i had tonsillitis but i did rather feel like death. it was a great experience! ill put a few pics from the shoot on the bottom of this post and leave the link......somewhere. probably near the pics or something. i dont know! argh! my head!
anyways...what else has been going down? ummmm ive done my care training, though i was abused by the two "higher-powers" doing it...i was used as a demonstrator. dont get me wrong, i was rather amused but ooh the embarrassment! need to fill out some little booklets now which i completely forgot to do! d'oh! shall do them when ive wrote this as i feel the need. or i may just read terry pratchett: making money. or have a nap...or sort out tonight....i am unsure really of what to do! mindfuck!
its been halloween, that was fun, got rather...well.....completely shitfaced with the son and random other crew whilst dressed as frankenfurter from the rocky horror show, though the majority of people just thought i was a hooker....oh well apparently i cant pull off being a transsexual transvestite from transylvania. who knew?

i have also changed my appearance yet again. i now have short purple-black hair with a pink fringe. i love it! though i do seem to keep getting a really cold breeze down the back of my neck! ill live though! not sure what else to say really......
oh for anyone vaguely interested i shall be doing another shoot at some point! fran did post something on her website saying it was coming soon! eeep! the excitement begins again! hmm bizzare bondage and clingfilm apparently! im not joking peeps see for yourself: http://getkinky.us/franceslaneerotica/?p=922 hee hee

umm yeah so i think its linkey photoey time huh?
ok so link to mine and chezz's shoot is here: http://getkinky.us/franceslaneerotica/?page_id=911&psmash-gallery=63
said shoot involves pics like these:

so look if you dareeeeee.......it was a fun shoot involving lesbianism and bondage. i cant wait to do another fun shoot. it was great that my first one was with chezz, ive known her for ages, im comfortable around her, shes cool as fuck and shes stunning!  just a shame i was diseased at the time! feeling miles better now though.







onto halloweens outfit and new hair briefly then i must retire:

yey purpley pink spikey shortness!!!!
though you cant really see in tht pic........

there. that ones shows the spikey awesomeness!


last picture now:

halloweebles :3



now im off into a world that for some short time will involve reality untill i do something silly to make it more interesting

byes!

i fuck you to make the pain go away

if you read the title and thought "oooh" then its entirely possible you will be disappointed as its not about sex., hehe

i  have actually just re-discovered a song i have not heard in far too long thanks to frances lane! :)

*pauses so anyone actually reading this can work out what it is*

give up/got it? 

its marilyn manson para-noir. for anyone scoffing or turning their nose up......GET OUT! lol i love marilyn manson. no that does not make me a goth, it means i like good music instead of hamstery voiced chav shit. that crap is just noise.

anyway on to the reason it came back to me after so long: i am due to do a shoot with frances lane eeeeep! aswell as the very lovely, very stunning chezz reed :) and a bit with the little polish wonder maya trubas! 

i say only a bit with maya as the work frances likes to do is fetish and erotica. so not really for under 18 people to do. maya (the gayface) is unfortunately 16 :( though it will be ok as soon as i invent a time machine!) me and chezz on the other hand are both 18 and over so we can do more erotic picz involving boobies and whatnot.

the shoot shall be on thursday of this week at maya and xanders place. i shall have to get in touch with chezz and ask what time she will be popping up! we are to wear nice underwear and it shall be a dirty, sexy shoot. i couldnt be more excited!! she said we should listen to: master and servant by depeche mode and para-noir and golden age of grotesque by marilyn manson to get an idea of what the shoot will be like. 

sooooooo.........im so bloody excited!!!!! hehehe

awkward turtle

this is not just going to be a page so i could show you >awkward turtle< if you didnt know it. 

but if you dont know what it is then its that.

i have decided i am a bad influence as i proceed to go out into town with "my son" and get him and everyone else including myself really rather drunk. 

this is my son for those who dont know:

his name is nathan broadhurst.

why when i typed that did fight club pop into my head?
that part where theyre all round the table after bob (bob had bitch tits) got shot in the head? "his name is robert paulson, his name is robert paulson......."
yes, that is really how my mind works.

anyways, me and nathan have kinda got a weekly ritual now. every wednesday we shall go to the white horse for push the button and £2 a drink. its great. push the button you win extra drinks or half price rounds and whatnot! then we possibly venture over to the wolfe if we aren't skint, then dissaperate at random times. (yes, we appear and disappear just like the people out of harry potter. that was not a complete grammatical error!)

week 1: this involved me, sonny boy, helen and rob.

 this is rob trying to "hitler" nathan.
i dont have a pic of helen from week 1.
anyways we got fairly merry and played some silly drinking games.
bada-ba!bada-ba! bada-boom!! yes, they are silly words involved in a game that also includes hand gestures.
there is also a game where you randomly point at someone and shout "DRINK" and they must drink!
then there was a game with a tablecloth as nathan is silly and spilt beer everywhere! (he gets it from his mother) he got a tablecloth to mop it all up and some crazy game ensued! we started lobbing said soggy cloth at each other and if you didnt catch it you had to drink. needless to say, there were a lot of face shots and a few sore eyes!! rachel and stu appeared at some point but they were incredibly gay and didnt stay out long at all!! you guys suck!

week 2: this involved me, dan, james, nathan, helen and chris.

james wood

helen webb and dan latus

chris saxton

 we also found a few randomers who i knew and some i didnt. but yeahh was a brilliant night. we all met at the white horse and the drinking and joking started, we played the "drink" *pointing finger* with olympic rules. meaning when you got pointed at (dun dun duuuun) you had to drink using your left hand or you had to down your drink. well this was fun. we hung in whitehorse for a while then decided on the wolfe. we wandered over *elevater music for effect* and got ourself split up a bit. this random guy called phil appeared out of nowhere and we caught a kyle! nathan hugged andy (bleurgh) after saying he wanted to punch him in the face. this was rather sickening but amusing to me. when will my boy learn? silly little drunkard with his fail beard. well anyways we appeared at the wolfe in our droves and as far as i remember we had a laugh. i found some new amusing people, got started on at least twice and almost peed myself when i saw the ex get with my mates housemate. oh the hilarity. then at the end of the night i got walked home by peck and had about a two hour drunken conversation outside my house in the rain. must have been a good night because i dont remember much at all!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=89346&id=1528239204   <- piccitchawers!!! yes, that is a severely retarded way of saying "pictures"
one more thing.................

AWKWARD TURTLE!!!!

i love my lil boy lol

OMG BEST TOP EVER!!

had to just point it out :)
anchorman is a very silly film. watch it!

I LOVE LAMP

that is all.

happy times and mothers birthday

im in such a good mood. i actually love (most of) my life! except the fact that i have a really crap immune system. may go to doctors and get a blood test. though i would hate that so very much. but i am ill like......all the time so it would maybe help? i dont know. 

anywayys onto the happy place.........

1. i have a fairly stable job at a bupa care home as a cleaner and im waiting to progress to care. may apply for a bar job in a pub somewhere though. i like bar work.

2. i have some great yet, mentally deficient friends and i love them muchly!!!

3. i am currently going out with a guy that i am crazy about, even though i dont see him as much as id like. hes someone i trust completely and have known for a few years.

4. my dads not drinking half as much as he used to so theres been no violence and he seems calmer.

5. mother should be in a good mood as it is now her birthday, though that could be cause for bad moods aswell

6. i have my appetite back completely. eaten a bacon sarnie, subway meatball thing and burger and chips today as well as a bag of crisps. may not seem like much but i tend to starve myself

7. made up with some old friends who didn't deserve my bitchiness, though i still stand by the fact they were in the wrong, i over-reacted

8. going to get rachel to cut my hair again at some point then im going to dye it pretty colours when i have money eeeep!

well yeah........theres probably well...... definitely more but i wont go on too much. i will add in a funny photo or something. 

ah that reminds me, i went to mayas the other day and found gas masks and wigs and stuff, it was fun playing with them whilst slightly drunk :) and at chezz's whilst having a bit of  a girly hair bleaching day i found a big red wig, that was funny. oh noes i are ginger!!!! 

aww little mummy is opening her cards and prezzies and just bashed me on the head for writing things in her card! at least i never put her picture in the herald!!!

<- gingerness

                                   piiiiiiink ->

gasmasks :)

and heres a random picture of me drunk and passed out on my mate mikes sofa which paul kindly put on facebook for me:

oh noes giant ramble!!

well its been an eventful couple of weeks. random things have happened, most of which i find amusing. some was just my own stupidity. well people heres the lowdown:
as most people know, i was going out with andrew western for about 3 months-ish. we were horrendously on and off. we had countless arguments about stupid things. he always made me feel like it was my fault, or that i was stupid because i didnt understand some things because i dont seem to think the same as other people. i made the mistake of telling him very personal things about me just to have them used against me and laughed at when we had a breakup or argument. towards the end i just started feeling drained and weak. just really not myself to be honest. instead of the usual happy, bouncy kayleigh here i was falling asleep on sofas, bein abnormally grouchy, crying over nothing, not wanting to do anything but stop inside.......the list goes on. finally i got rid after hearing what he had actually been saying behind my back when we had breakups. so yeah.....free from him now.
well....so i thought. i thought i would get rid of him and be free to get on with my life with my friends and my job and whatnot. thought id chosen the right friends but obviously not. i still cared about andy after we broke up, didnt love him, just cared. didnt want anything bad to happen to him or anything like that.....
suddenly all of 2 days after we had broken up i see on facebook that my supposed best mate georgina is in a relationship. so i ring her and ask who all happy like "yey you have a bf" and she says its a secret and theyre keeping it on the down low. then i see on facebook mobile shes with andy. hmmm great. he continues to hurt me even after weve broken up. now shes doin it too after i thought i could trust her.
after all georgina said about vikki going for her ex (after theyd been split up for bloody months) she turns round and does it to me!! "oh friends shouldnt do that, i cant beleive shes done this to me, shes one of my best friends, i still love him, this always happens to me, i wouldnt do it to anyone, blah blah blaaaaahhhhh" yeah obviously it was all shit. so to you my short, chubby, slutty ex-friend......i hope you get what you deserve :) which will probably be clap if you havent got it already. tends to happen if you sleep with a different guy everyday.
after all this i go to the foyer to get my telly back, yeah i lent her a fucking telly and a dvd/video player thing. well mike came with me. we go up and the stuffs outside her room. mike goes for the telly and i pick up the dvd/video player. typically the bag its in is snapped so i have to basically hug it to carry it. (meaning my hands were completely full) i turn to mike and say "that had better be everything, im not coming back to this whore's house" at this point jade sticks her scrawny little arse into the works. i know its not really kosher for me to call people scrawny but shes a hell of a lot smaller than me yet doesnt seem to think so. anyway she pipes up "what did you say?" trying to be "hard" or whatever. i calmly yet cockily turn and say "i was talking to mike not you" me and mike are walking down the corridor of the foyer struggling with the telly and whatnot. then jade flys out of nowhere saying "dont insult the foyerrrr" i was slightly confused as well....i didnt? and she grabs my face and smashes my head against a wall twice then starts hitting me in the face/side of the head. i turned my head away as i hate being punched in the nose. then i walked off to the lift and waved at jade as the doors closed.
after that she decided to give me shit on facebook, threatening me and trying to insult me. though its funny as people stuck up for me. namely anna. she was brilliant! insulting jades intelligence and saying she looked like a crack head and assorted other things.
uuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.................................
im back with keith. which some people have called me stupid and shook their heads at me for but most people have said if it makes me happy then go for it! which is what im going to do. i think we were good together before so why wouldnt we be again? weve already done more than we did before. that sounds wrong but what i mean is last time we barely went out and about. this time weve been to the cinema a few times, been out in carlisle and gone for  crazy walk up a mountain. generally having a good time with him. should be seeing him again tonight so looking forward to that. may be going to the cinema again. but i dont care i just want to see him. he makes me happy and if anyone doesnt like it then........fuck you :)

i am alive!!!! just encase you thought i wasnt

hmmmmmmmmmm.........................................................not entirely sure what to write.
if youve been desperately missing my blog and worrying about the lack of kayleigh then fear no more!! i have returned to let more random rants and ramblings flow from my brain and through my fingertips into the computer!! wow its like magic! i wish i could write like terry pratchett. he is an amazingly talented man.
anyhow, i am not dead :) though ive been feeling it recently. been arguing and over-tired. collapsing randomly, having coughing fits and chest pains, sneezing..well, erupting! generally not good.

ive decided that im a little bit weird. i seem to chat shit......a lot! today i preyed on a girl i barely know. her status was something about someone going into her house and only stealing underwear??? so me being ...... rather strange owned up to it, said i was drunk and thought it would be funny. well then i thought oh dear im not gonna get abuse or nything am i? im sick in the head and it was a joke lol then her name popped up on chat and she started chatting to me (obviously) but she joined in with my madness! yesssh i felt very peculiar when she asked for her underwear back and i told her i would enjoy sniffing them for a while longer and when i said i would keep a pair as a momento but oh well lol thats just my silly sense of humour. i blame the guys i hung with through school. ross, dan, simon......you are all such bad influences :P

erm........my hair now has purple in it >woooop< and i have 2 new piercings. nose and nipple :)
so my total piercedness count is 3 left earlobe, 3 right earlobe,  1 top right ear, eyebrow, nose, middle of my lip, micro in my chest, nipple (guess which one lol) and navel. though keep in mind once upon a time i had surfaces in my hips. they were lush and i loved them but they were bloody awkward!!  i want another tattoo now aswell. "unrequited love kills when all hes after is mindless thrills, i want something to last because im through living in the past" i think. i want writing across my ribs anyway and thats a poem i made up. i may end up getting meaningful song lyrics or making up another poem. oh well we shall see :)
that may be it for now.............yes, yes it is. goodbyeeee!!!

friiiiiidayyyyy funs with the boyfriend

i had a great day the other day. well not just great, it was fairly perfect actually! apart from the fact i had work and the extreme bloating at the end of the day! but im getting ahead of myself. ill start from the beginning .....
*cue  mysterious whooshy music*
it was friday, seemed like just a normal day. well, to be fair it was. though i knew in my mind that andy had something planned.....but what? hed asked me earlier in the week if i was free on friday and i was. then he told me that i was not allowed to carry out my usual plan of gorging myself after work. this depressed me slightly. but i sadly agreed. he also said "just because it involves food, doesnt mean its a meal" well thanks for confusing me!!!

i spent the rest of the bloody week up till friday completely mindfucked!! involves food but doesnt mean its a meal......what could it be?  anyways back to the actual day. i got up and went to work...bleurgh....couldnt really be bothered but i struggled through. actually kinda forgot about the surprise i was feeling that...meh. cleaning for 4 hours minus the 20 min break we have is not really my idea of a fun day buuuut its my job and it brings me money that i desperately need and i mean desperately!!! its not payday til the bloody 24th and i have......oooft about £10? maybe i should sell some shit? lol i dunno. spent alot on andys birthday present and on myself :P oh well. thats only a week and 4 days tomorrow by my calculations, im sure ill just survive. but will have to borrow a bit for andys birthday partayyyy massive. 22 this year old git :P nah i joke. bless him.

my god i like getting off track! after work i went home, had a bath, ate just a little bit and faffed a hell of a lot! then after a few hours i went to meet andy and was whisked off to carlisle to mikes tattoos. he was getting a sky+ box off the legend himself: mark gibson. for those uneducated people who dont know who he is, i feel sorry for you. he works at mikes tattoos, but no he isnt a tattooist. he does the piercings. such brilliant work aswell! i have had a fair few piercings done. i have my ear lobes pierced 3times. twice proffesional but not at mikes and once by my friend harley carrick. i got my navel done when i turned 16. this was closely followed by my eyebrow and the top of my ear. i then reached out and got 2 surface piercings on my stomach, towards my hips. they were damn cool. i adore my microdermal anchor though. its in my clevage and its shiny and fucking awesome. mark did all those. then his prodigy (<- maybe prodigy is a bit too far but still.) ppierced my lip. and i dont hate it. theres nothing wrong with it though i didnt trust him really. so yeah thats mark. everything and nothing!!!!

then me and andy went to a bar but i cant remember its name and it was jager fridays! we tried some weird jagerbombs and had a desperados each. the first i tried was called a "skittle bomb" this was jagermeister, cointreau and redbull. it was fruity and basically nom. the second was jager and bubbly (wtf my dad is crawling across the floor???) this was known as a luxury bomb. the last one i tried was a cherry bomb. this was jager, cherry sours and coke, which was surprisingly very good! we then tried a refreshers cocktail and it tasted just like the sweets!! i had basically a giant union jack! (grenadine/cherry sours, blue curaco, archers and lemonade) and andy had something that the barmaid had recommended. after all these drinks we headed back to penrith.

after a quick whirl of getting changed (me into a leopard print dress and andy into some nice tight around the arse jeans and a smart black shirt) then he grabbed my hand and lead me round town as i blindly followed. it was surprise time!!! he took me to giannis! only the best italian restaurant in town!! he knows me so well! i love italian food.my favourite is spaghetti bolognese. we took our seats and got a drink each. i was still a bit confused because of what hed said about the surprise (not gorging myself etc) i was like: ha! it was a meal! we had a really nice waiter aswell he was happy and friendly and just made you feel comfortable. for starters we had chicken with cheese in the middle wrapped in bacon with tomato sauce stuff. it was delicious!!! 10/10! main course i had .....take a guess!! pasta bolognese drowned with parmesan  cheese and andy had a massive steak. then even though we were both stuffed like turkeys at chrismas we somehow ordered desert. andy had a baileys cheesecake as recommended by our happy waiter and i had a chocolate fudge cake....possibly the best ive ever tasted!! we both struggled while we tried to shovel them in but neither of us could fully finish these delicious treats.

we saw a fight outside last orders on our way to spar which we stood and watched for a while as we found it highly amusing, especially after it turned into a full scale brawl. then we went to the board and elbow where "the hoovers" were playing. in my opinion they were a really good band and wouldnt mind seeing them again.
my shoulder hurts from typing with the laptop above me so i shall now retire. but all in all it was an amazing day, i loved my surprise and i love my andy :)

quit your jibber jabber foooool!!!

excuse me, can i have the attention of the class, for one second?

yes that is a line from an eminem song, genius :)

listening to eminem more again recently, not entirely sure why. kinda been thrown back in love with him since 'not afraid' and 'love the way you lie' <- adore that song. i told andy it should be our song without listening to it properly so when he turned round confused saying its about hating each other aswell as loving them i was like hmmm.....listened to it again and was like......shit yeah :/ silly me! i say things without thinking a lot. but im blonde so i get away with having my little moments.

speaking of moments, i had a weird one today .....hmm theres a funny smell coming from somewhere.....might be my sister :/ wouldnt surprise me. i am still almost positive she doesnt wash very often.

anyway, today at work i was outside on the phone to andy, i wandered round the long way to go back to the kitchen and saw 'v', my break was over anyway and she looked like she wanted to talk to me so i rushed off the phone and acknowledged (<-wow i spelt a big word) her existence with a nice hello and a bit of a grin. she replied with the weirdest and most random thing i think ive ever heard come out of her mouth. "who was on the phone, your girlfriend?" ......my girlfriend? i repeated, just encase she had muddled herself up. apparently not! "yes, girlfriend, why, who was it then?" i just stared at her. it was my boyfriend! she seemed very confused by this concept. a male? she looked at me puzzled, "your so nice to us old women i just thought....."  i was honestly shocked! though highly amused at the same time. im nice to women so im a lesbian. hmm....well i guess it kinda works. though fail on her part. 

thats me in my new (ish) ed hardy top which i love :) and that is my silly boyfriend andy who i also love muchly. though i must express the fact that he is very silly :P

that reminds me of the other night. goddamn it i was furious!!

this is what happened:

andys brother met a new lass that he was trying to get into. brought her to andys house and she met his mother cheryl who is lovely and so quirky and her boyfriend nabab who is a really nice guy. she also obviously met andy and eventually me! well......this girl seemed ok. she kept complimenting me which, i must say made me really rather bigheaded for a while. "are you a model? your so skinny" <- ummm nope? lol and kept telling andy i was gorgeous and a "keeper" which i found amusing, this lass thats just met me saying that based on looks im a keeper. for all she knows im a cheating whore or a complete nasty bitch. im not obviously. well the second thing i said crops up sometimes but thats because my schizophrenia just tries to get the better of me. 

nah im pulling your leg, im not schizophrenic, i feel like i am sometimes though. when im angry or upset im a whole different person, a person you dont want to know or even go near to be honest! i have a vicious tongue and like to hurt people when im in that sort of mood. know exactly what to say. anywayyys, we decided to go to a karaoke night at the wolfe. me, andy, phil, cheryl, nabab and this girl. 

this girl that i keep mentioning is called sarah riley. it was not til we got to the pub that we found out how fucked up she really is. starts crying for no reason at all, starts telling us shes pregnant etc, tries to get with her new boss who is a woman, after being adamant that she was straight, more crying and generally putting a downer on the night. i try and talk to her but then andy and phil appear and she attaches herself to andy like a leech. i leave them to it and think fuck it. but was a bit paranoid seeing as everytime she talked to andy she felt the need to clarify with me what she was saying. andy is allowed to talk to other females ya know! im not miss whiplash!! lol

after a while. well......about 20 minutes i wandered outside with hannah to see if theyd finished talking. i see them holding hands and with initial paranoia and alcohol mixing, naturally im a bit annoyed!! by the time i wander off then go back theyre gone. i venture back to where everyones sitting and hes there. i express my annoyance with the understanding that i am a bit of a paranoid idiot and we talk and i calm down. then i wander away again after hearing sarah has been kicked out. i go and see if shes ok as she has done nothing wrong. then EPIC CONFUSEMENT!!! "sarah, are you alright?" 

"you think because im happy go lucky that im a slag and i want to fuck your boyfriend....etc etc" <- what? after trying to reason with this drunk i give up and tell her to go away. but she decides to grab my fucking necklace and top. i get dragged over the barrier as i am, lets face it, tiny! i immediately stand up and get a bat in. IN THE FACE!!! booyah bitch!!! some people jump inbetween us and seeing her restrained i start the hunt for my necklace s the little sket snapped it!! find it eventually and man was i pissed off. later we find out that the retard had took horse tranquilisers, obviously mixed them with alcohol and is a general chavvy retard.

phil you sure d pick em!!

anyways time to trek to old morrisons.....gooodbyeeeee

my birthday, madness :)

well my 18th....was epic!! i had a great time even though i didnt see too many people. those that came made it amazing.
ugh the cat just sneezed on my head and my hand.......GRIM!!
well my birthday was the friday, sadly andy was working so he was up at 5, he woke me up to say goodbye beforehand....and to try and give me birthday sex but at that time? i was having none of it!!
anyways, i slept until nine then spent a little of my birthday money on a new shiny digital camera :) and an anchorman tshirt woop!! went home for a little bit then prepared for carlisle!!!
onwards i trekked to the station as fast as my little legs could carry me!
sat at the station on my own for a little while until matty and his friend appeared so i talked to them on the train.
i got off and we went our separate ways i trailed down to mikes, designs for my tattoo on hand, thinking i was just there to get it drawn up for me. but when i went in he already basically had......soooo i was told to come back at 4. immediate panic attack!!!! but after hanging round with lloyd for a while, talking to andy and seeing catherine i went and got numbing cream and was calmer but still panicky......
i got it done though :)

i love itt :)

birthdayyyyy

im happy again :)
yesterday.....no.....the day before, me and andy made up and got back together yeey :) so now everythings ok again and it feels back to normal. back to being very very silly. plus my grandma is fine, just sore after her fall so its all good. sorted just in time for my birthday!! :) could not be happier right now really. well i could. id be happier if i wasnt going to carlisle today on my lonesome but andys at work and im only going to get my tattoo drawn up soooo......its okii ill live unless i get attacked or raped....or killed. but all i need to do is make it to mikes and back which is entirely manageable.
then i shall come back home and at cake and have a bath and wait for andy to finish work. then enjoy the rest of my birthday :)
cant wait for the party tomorrow, im really excited!! anyways im offskis to get ready to mish!! type laterz

bollocks

well.....so my birthday week is going swimmingly seeing as ive just had to break up with andy as he blatantly refuses to talk to me about things of importance. well some say im better off but i feel like crap, now im just looking forward to my tattoo and getting drunk!! thats about all my ramble for now is about really

you cant be in a relationship if you cant communicate!!

the end. im too pissed off to ramble. maybe tomorrow.

birthday week

it has come to the week of my birthday...hoorayyy!!
im currently sat at andys all on my lonesome waiting for him to come on his break. *sigh*
got to thinking about my birthday, jeeves told me that several packages have been delivered to my house so im bouncy and hapyful!! for once i cant wait to get home! but i shall wait to see the other half first. want to tear those parcels open and have my way with them! mwahahaha!
anyways....its my birthday on friday, finally 18 so i can do what i want...when i want....kinda! still have work for the next two days but its ok, i like the residents theyre cool. 9-3 for two dayys will not soil my mood. especially as i have care training tomorrow and kitchen training also.
on friday i shall be.....i dont really know. at some point ill go to carlise and have my tattoo drawn up for saturday. must...resist.....spending more...moneyy!! after said trip i have not got a clue of how to spend the rest of my day. except the obvious thing of opening whatever presents i have in a blind flurry! wrapping paper and cards will be everywhere, strewn over sofas and the odd cat. i shall be sat in the middle of all this destruction, clutching whatever i have recieved on that fine day. i may also venture to my uncles pub for a little while that night and let him serve my first legal alcoholic beverage then onto warehouse to see brucey play and hopefully receive my shoutout! but just maybe, im not really sure.
saturday will possibly be the more painful and amusing day! i will be yet again venturing to carlisle and this time getting needled. its only a small tattoo so hopefully i shouldn't be too wimpish! after that i may have a wander and a relax! then, at night the real fun begins! its my party, pimps and hoes theme. pub crawl superful! may start it earlier than intended as its a good idea from mr daleypops. but yeah i intend on being smashed and only being able to remember the night because of the pictures. kinda like the hangover but, instead of a stag do....its my birthday! maybe ill at some point just make everyone be quiet and do alans wolfpack speech, that could be amusing. if we loose someone then i might just sing the doug song.
hmmm if the scaffoldings still up at andys i might climb on there with some jager....

ok im getting ahead of myself, but my excitement is bubbling over! yeyy

chow for now :)

little opinionated thing

this is me. im nothing special. a lot of people would call me average looking really. though i do things to make myself look less........ordinary?
1. i dye my hair obnoxious colours. im a natural blonde, a darkish blonde. i got bored of that colour so moved on to other colours, to start with they were just the usual. i have had brown, black and red. then i went onto blue-black, purple, pink...now iv'e gone back bright blonde with blue and pink. i love it. makes me feel unique. i can almost guarantee no-one i know will have the same hair colours as me! im all happy and colourful sometimes.
2. i am obsessed with piercings!! i got my ear lobes done when i was younger as most people do. that is basically how it all started. i then continued to get the lobes a second time- both professionally i might add. on my 16th birthday i decided to grow some balls and get my navel done. well it did not hurt at all really, gave me a rush. so in two years i have got a few more. went for some quite common ones first. got harley to pierce the 3rd holes in my lobes with ice and a needle. that fair hurt. then i got the top of my ear done and my eyebrow. loved my eyebrow, though it is uber-common. after that i went for a less common piercing......i got my hips pierced, surface piercings for the win. me and sarahs surfaces are shown here. im in the red stripy top and sarah burnette is in the blue.

sarah and me in mikes tattoos ->
<- this is a picture of a surface bar. that piercing actually really hurt. it goes into your fat layer. ouch!! the other piercing shown is a microdermal anchor. i have one of those on my chest. its sparkly and cute! my surfaces unfortunately fucked up. my final piercing (so far) is the middle of my lip. i like it, i have finally got a horseshoe ring in it like the cover of escape the fates album. so yeah. love piercings.
3. tattoos!!! im finally 18 on friday 6th august. so on the very day im going to get my tattoo redrawn as i have drawn it up practically how i want it but its unfinished and every time i try to finish it it just looks wrong. its a torn up heart shaped cherry. i want it to be half sown up but when i try it goes wrong. ill put a pic on it when i can be bothered to upload it onto the computer.

right, well, what were going to do......

i am still bubbling with excitement about my 18th! cant wait for my passport to arrive so i have some i.d. ive said this before but its uber-embarrasing to be turned away from a pub when you actually are 18 :/ sooo its not going to happen to meeeee! cant wait for me and my friends to party it up bigstyle! plus theres a meal happening some point next week (my birthday week <3) so that should be good. nommy!!

wants tattoo ^_^
i wants it, i wants it, i wants it!!!
i must MUST design the cherry one for my shoulder so i can find out ho much both will cost, then go for the cheaper option, as you do. ooooor i might go for the bleeding star logo somewhere else so i stil have the option of each tattoo.
so that would be, cupcake on my hip, cherry on my shoulder or bleeding star logo somewhere to be confirmed. must get designing!!!
also want corsetting but shhhhh, mother would HATE me for that. not that id be too bothered as its what i want to do with my body.

deided im going to quit smoking, wish me luck! i know as soon as im 18 ill go mad and be like yey! i can buy them myself now! thatll suck because ill just keep spending money! i dont like smoking because andy doesnt smoke and it must be like kissing an ashtray, which i dont expect would be too nice.

met keith yesterday for all of a few minutes while i did my favour for chewter. i was waiting by b n m then realised i was stood in an ants nest!!! they were running everywhere, crawling up my legs and on my feet, i started screaming and dancing about to get them off, thankfully no-one was there to see this craziness. i shuffled away and coolly lent on a bollard thing to act like that episode had not happened just as keith came round the corner. he'd cut his hair again. i never liked it short. was nice to see him and have a little chat, though he looked ill :(

im talking a lot today! still waiting for nathan to come in, yesterday he fell asleep and went to hospital but he promised he would be in today. well we shall see!!
this is a page from frances lanes blog, it really upset me and pissed me off, read it and share your opinions, whoever did this is fucked up and evil!....http://frannylane.blogspot.com/2010/07/my-brother.html
things like this should not happen!!!

speaking of frances lane, im a little upset that she hasnt got back to me about my email yet. she obviously has bigger things to worry about right now so i understand. maybe shes waiting until i am actually 18? i dont know. maybe she just doesnt want me.

ho-hum my lifes a little hectic at the moment but i wouldnt have it any other way.....wait, id be taller. yes thatll do. i have amazing friends who i love to pieces, i have a strange yet......well yeah a strange boyfriend, a good job that i can go places in and im generally really happy at the moment so woooo! anyways i bid you adieu!!

excitableness

it is exactly 4 days until i get paid, then i am going to carlisle and booking my tattoo :) also buying blue and pink dye for my hair. dragging andy along, though probably not around shops really as he'll act like a plum ><

its 10 days until my 18th, im fairly excited! hopefully ill have booked my tattoo by then and be waiting in anticipation for that. may be having a meal with nabab and cheryl. andy aswell of course! that should be good. my birthday party is a pimps and hoes night. maybe pre-drinking at andys first, but just a few of us, then hitting the town. my passport should come sometime this week so ill definitely have i.d in time and wont look retarded whilst i get rejected from pubs. meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep <- dont ask, i dont know. andy is at work and im at home bored.

need to ring the ex soon....lucky me! really cba to speak to him or see him. im doing a favour for chewter seeing as keith seems to hate him. last time chewter rang him he screamed "fuck off" down the phone which i found hillarious!! sooo not looking forward to seeing him as i havent seen him since the morning we broke up. oh and i have a hiccie on my neck thanks to andy, so i may be mildly amused. i still love ryan for what he said about keiths new other half. what a funny boy he is.

ryan bless him needs to be selfish. i wont explain why but what hes doings wrong!! what an arab!!

anyhowws i suppose i should kind of get ready as nathans meant to be in soon, yey!! haven't seen that loveable sillyhead in a while. wish the damn weather would sort itself out. oh well

gooodbyyyyeeeee

i fear i may implode!

its cockys birthday today....happy birthday btw!! finally 18, even though your t-total so werent waiting to be able to drink.....but yeyyy!! just over a week and ill be in 18land too. just hoping my passport comes in time! fingers crossed!!!!
it was cockys party yesterday, had a good time. was a small gathering. there was about 7 of us
hmmm a mysterious knock at the door!!! i wonder who that is......
but yeah had a good time, played on smash brothers, had some good cake and a few drinks. pics are here: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=66876&id=1528239204

there are many crazy pics and videos on my facebook. the one from cockys birthday where i stroke a cow is amusing. well it was very amusing to me at the time as i was drunk and had never touched a cow before. that was a good day.

now to the imploding bit......
(the door was apparently for my sister so yey i didnt have to move)
i am soooooooo bored, im watching two and a half men which is not being as amusing as usual sadly. waiting for a call of chewter the forgetful lump. but hes probably not ringing me til half 7 so i have a while yet. im tired, though i got plenty of drunken sleep. so im confused. looking forward to going to andys tonight and watching 'the crazies' looks .....interesting. i want something to do, ive decided on my tattoo design and its perfected except the retarded stars. im not very good at star-drawing.

anyways, what pissed me off today was a young chav. this particular breed of human makes my blood boil anyway, let alone when the little retards decide to insult you. apparently im a freak and im also emo? well i could not care less about the chavs viewing me as a freak as i think the very same about them. but calling me emo because i have a fringe, that was a stroke of genius. chavs are so clever arnt they?
this one in particular started off completely illiterate and then when i took him up on this, facebook chat went silent for about 10 minutes, then all of a sudden, said chav had pulled some big words out of the air! well i found this amusing as he tried to tell me he would do so much better im life, that he was at school and getting a*s apparently. well my view of chavs are as filthy, smelly, burberry wearing, illiterate fools who spend their days eating out of bins, smoking copious amounts, taking any drug possible, drinking in public places and generally being annoying. so yeah this little chav pissed me off and now i want to punch/eat him.

i have a funny obsession with eating things/people at the moment and im not sure why. ive been overeating horrifically but thankfully due to my crazilly high metabolism i put on no weight whatsoever. but i also told andy the other day i would eat him in public, which probably sounded crazy but i am so i don't care.
im happy i can actually be myself with a guy. it sucks when you cant. you just sit and be quiet and hide who you are. you know what i mean. but with andy im just silly and happy and all over the place! his mum cheryl is also uber cool. though she is just like a second mother which is a little scary but yeah.

another thing pissing my right off is father as usual. i hate that prick and i want to slit his throat, but hell probably die or something soon anyway so never mind. he smookes like 40 a day, drinks every night until hes drunk, hes abusive, aggressive and lazy, plus hes huge so hell be putting a lot of strain on his heart. just die already you selfish prik!!!!

anyhowss so ends my ramble on as hes back down and will most likely want to continue watching his film on here. ho-hum back to two and a half men then i think. hopefully chewter will remember to ring me, he is a bit stupid. to infinity and beyoooooooond!!!!!

NIGHTMARE!!! aaaaand mopped.....TO DEATH!!

everybody must MUST listen to nightmare by avenged sevenfold and watch the video!! the video is soooo sad, it made me want to cry. oooh i sound like a big girls blouse! but its perfect tribute to jimmy. or "the rev" for you people that only know his stage name or only heard of his death. it is a beautiful song - well to me it is. it starts off kind of gothic, reminded me a little of nightwish (another good band, plenty of epic ballads) then it gets into it epically. nice and heavy. its great they got jimmys drumming idol mike portnoy from dream theatre to drum with avenged. though he isnt shown at all in the nightmare video, whenever a drum kit is shown its empty.anyway love love LOOOOOVE the song :)

today at work i was attacked by a GIANT black beetle. it was HUUUUUUGE!!! i was cleaning and it ran at me so i drew my mighty mop from the bucket it resides and instantly started smashing the beetle with said mop! mwahahaha!!! thats what you get for attacking me mr beetle, you pay with your life! yeah the beetle was mopped to death and i was amused and no longer feared for my life!

had a great day yesterday minus the argument me and andy had, but were fine now, its all gravy. went to castle park, found laura, her other half popple and her crazy children, roared at the children for a while, then went to macdonalds with them. the kids both got balloons so andy sulked and called the woman "ageist" poor andy :) anywaaays i should really start getting ready as ive just been pissing about on here. soooooo
chow for now x

tattoooooooings and DAVE!!!

this is my little cupcake :) its a reminder of my past, how even the people you trust most can hurt you and its also a bright and happy look to the future. it means alot to me. this is my first tattoo design which im thinking of getting. im going to design my other two that im thinking of: the heart and the yin-yang symbol and see which i would rather. need to get them done by the end of the month though. but eeeeeeeeeeee!!! cant wait. will most likely hurt getting it done but hey!

will upload my designs. may get one of my poem.
"unrequited love kills when all hes after is mindless thrills, i want something to last because im through living in the past" ....... i dunno really.




people should listen to this: http://soundcloud.com/davekore/dead-mans-switch-davekore?utm_source=soundcloud&utm_campaign=share&utm_medium=facebook&utm_content=http://soundcloud.com/davekore/dead-mans-switch-davekore

its my mate dave. hes cool lol

random plans and ideas

i have a cunning plan.....
well its more like a few crazy random ideas mushed together, stirred up then poured over ice for uber-coolness.
i may be going to carlisle with my boyfriends brother mr phil western to get a tattoo next month. squeeeeeeee!! very excited, must finish my designs!!!
i also need to get saving for my corsetting madness. going to get it along my side so it looks all sexual and awesomes :) should be going with sarah massey now that those gay rumours have been sorted. yeah theyre obviously not true, whoever made them up could have been a little more creative. "ohh im kayleigh and i want to beat sarah up because shes with tcharn" erm....no? she can be with whoever she wants to be with as long as shes happy.
im also going to see if i can possibly model for frances lane. its mainly fettish modelling and involves some nudity and it actually really appeals to me. you have to be 18 though so im waiting til next month. but im sending her an email explaining my situation atm. im so excited about all three of theese things and hope they all happen :)

do you know what really grinds my gears??

ahhh family guy :) love that show lol

anywayyyys......
some words i hate....but still occasionally use:
DOUCHE
it means "wash" in french. therefore you saying douche makes you a fool as youre calling people a wash??? makes no sense its annoying and must get out of the youth of cumbrias minds!!
AMAZING
its a good word when used in the right context obviously. but it pisses me right off because keith used to call me that. then when we broke up he said i was again so that word kinda does my head in. i flinched when andy said it the other night.
CUTE
i swear if one more person calls me cute heads will roll!!! this is possibly my most hated word ever. who the hell looks at me and thinks "aww your cute" like im a little animal or something? puppies, kittens, babies...are cute!! im 18 next month for gods sake im not cute at all. :@
MINGE
what kind of word is minge anyway? it sounds like a dirty word. not dirty in the good way, in the disgusting unclean sort of way.

so this is what im looking like theese days, im all grown up, so full of hate

hmm so yeah thts me atm :)
i have blonde hair, its actually short but i have extensions :P my fringe is currently blue but fading so i think ill do it again. i am a piercing and tattoo lover!! i have my ear lobes pierced 3 times, one at the top of my right ear, i have my eyebrow done, belly button, chest (microdermal anchor) and lip :) i used to have my hips done with surface piercings but one ripped out and keith took the other out because i was too scared to. im 18 next month so im hoping to be getting tattoos and more piercings. ive designed some. im really looking forward to the back piece. may upload some sketches soon. i defo will when i eventually get them done :) may take a while, tattoos are expensive. may be getting corsetting on the cheap at some point :) meant to be £180 but getting it for £100 because mark likes doing them. schweeeet.
im currently taken by one mr andrew western and have been since saturday so not long but im happy. have alot of dvd nights where we just talk rubbish (well i talk rubbish lol) its nice i like it :) gonna watch 02:13 or something tonight. its meant to be saw mixed with seven so should be good.
getting ready for andys now :) taking seven along aswell even though its lloyds dvd. ive had it aaaaages though >< its brilliant. it has brad pitt in when hes still yummy :)
goodbye for now

fave songs atm

keep listening to one song obsessively!!

HATE ME

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

two other songs that have me obsessed are paralyzer by finger eleven and a little piece of heaven by avenged sevenfold :)
cannot stop listening to them argh!!!!! lol

well yeah yeyy :)

eeeep birthday stuffs :)

OMG!!!!
im getting more and more excited for my birthdayy seeing as all my random stuffs keeps appearing!!
ive got my thigh high stockings, my hair extensions...theyre the wrong colour but i may just dye them and itll be ok. i also have my high heels which are higher than i expected :/ apparently they are 7.9" they make my feet hurt and bend them at an unnatural angle but i like them!! lol all nice and purpley eeeeeeeeeeee!!! and today i got my corset! its red and shiny and it kinda fits! lol i keep trying to convince myself im an 8 not a ten so i obviously ordered a size 8 corset and ive tried it on. theres a bit of rib crushing and boob squashing going on but i love it!!! just waiting on the hotpants i ordered now.
i will put some pics on facebook and here
this is my facebook: http://www.facebook.com/kaylage
theres so much crap on there!! umm so yeah ill mention now that the extensions i got were from www.sarahs-hair-extensions.com and i do have a discount code so if someone wants some with £5 off then let me know. i got my corset from www.corsets-uk.com though you can find those corsets on amazon and ebay aswell as the website is temporarily glitching and not showing pictures.

hmm anyways im off for a quick bath then a trek to the healcare centre wooo!! i love that place so much! (is a shame sarcasm doesnt translate well over text)

NO! DRINK THE BLEACH! and random stuffs

yesterday i accidentally told a woman to drink bleach :/
i walked into her room and she pleasantly asked me to get the bleach off the windowsil and use it to wash out a bucket. i replied "no drink the bleach" and immediately felt stupid. she gave me an annoyed and confused look and i just kept apologising. what a penis i am. serves me right for getting metalocalypse stuck in my head!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d8QgviyaU4U

NO! DRINK THE BLEACH!!


my hair extensions have arrived :) but they are the wrong colour :( maybe i can pull them off anyway? or die them? i dunno :/
my shoes also arrived but they are bigger than i expected :/ hopefully i wont break myself by walking in them :O

piercings and stuffs!!!

wellllllll the other day i went to carlisle with sarah massey after work and we got pierced in places :) sarah got hers first as i really couldnt decide what i wanted to get. she got a skindiver in the side of her face by her ear - almost looks like a tragus piercing. which are pretty smart. i may get a tragus one .....hmmmmm. anyways it was uber gross and also highly amusing when mark gibson (the legend of everything and nothing himself) was piercing sarahs face. her face kinda exploded. i described it as erupting like volcano. first there was nothing and then blood started oozing out everywhere i was sat across the room like "arghhhhh" lol eventually the bleeding stopped and it came to paytime. oh wait i didnt mention when matt was asking sarah the questions before the piercing. there was the usual sorta "have you drank anything etc" but then he was asked her if shed had a haematoma and things like that and bless her she looked so confused!! she was like errrrr....no? pulling amusing faces and trying not to cry with laughter. but back to paytime. mark didnt want sarah to pay by card ad sent us to the vue cinema, sarah is an awkward little bi-hatch and decided that since vue charged for withdrawls we would walk all the way past the train station etc to another bank. then she needed the loo didnt she? so we had to walk into the lanes so she could go then walk aaaaallll the way back down to mikes. well that was a faff! then it was time to get my piercing done. i got the middle of my lip which i am uber pleased with! matt did it. it was weird mark not doing it as i only really trust him with anythig other than my ear lobes as im not arsed about them really. but yeah it fairly stug and its swollen but i loves it!!!! lol its hard to eat and ive only really regained all feeling but its good. bit annoying but yh. its early days yet.
my fringe is now blue aswell which i thinks fairly cool and im starting to get the things i ordered through ^_^ i have my leopard print dress which is a lovely blue colour and my stockings :) yeynesss

anyhowsies i must be off to put some jeans on and then meet igglepiggle.
i mean chewter :/ lol

GAY? fuckups and the HELL BEAST!!!!

what the hell is this thing?
walked into work this morning and into the laundry room. debs pointed out this beast and weve been trying to think of what it could be. looks a bit like one of the reapers from the doctor who with christopher eccleston. should have took a pic of it from the side coz it was creepy!! never seen a thing like it!! if anybody can tell me what exactly it is it would me much appreciated lol


hmm someone on facebook just said its a "hawk moth?? noice!!

haha hoppy amused me the other day. he told me he had gotten a new job. wont say where or he may get abused as its in town lol and apparently he works with this guy dan who ive mentioned before. but what really amused me was that apparently his co-workers think dans gay! well... i opened my giant mouth and said that he wasnt. obviously hoppy was intrigued "how do you know?" etc so i sighed. then explained. hoppy wasnt surprised as he is used to this. he quite embarrassed me the other day by discussing my personal life infront of jason, chewter and graham and saying "kayleigh fucks anything when shes drunk" yeah thanks penis :( but anywayy...dan isnt gay unless hes suddenly turned lol
hmmm........so one of my mates has been sleeping with another mates boyfriend :/ well call my single mate mandy and the other one betty. some nice old people sounding names lol well mandy told me what shed done and naturally i told her off...(well call the guy tommy) she said that her and tommy had been sleeping together behind bettys back. so i said "well its done now dont do it anymore, you wouldnt like it if that happened to you, its not fair" and all that jazz. mandy seemed to understand and take in what i was saying so i thought shed stop but no. it all kicked off lst night when betty saw mandy in the car with tommy. after several attempts of us trying to talk sense into betty and calm her down we thought wed done it. then she went over to mandys and kicked off. apparently this was going on til after 12 :/ oh dears. then tommy tried to break up with betty and she was begging him not to!! crazyness!!!!

beep boop

sooooooooooo im bored and phils home soon so i cant go on the laptop when hes here. coz im banned "FOREVER" apparently. well look whos on the laptop now?? nom
im bored and i had work and its hot and pie and.....i dont even know lol
graham was meant to be about but tcharn (who smells like an arab - no joke!) stole him away to look at cars apparently. so now im at home on my own which sucks arse. maybe ill call on natalie? that may be an idea! yess possibly. if i can be arsed to go out yet. may just wait for graham. meep moop moop i dont know what im actually typing now but it seems to be amusing me. as i have said before my insanity is leaking. ho-hum i guess i should get off the laptop and make myself acceptable.

i was never here!!! lol

happy "fuck off and die" day, prick

im happily sat on facebook when mr "im hard because im an alcoholic and i threaten my family" otherwise known as phil walks in.
"well?" he looms over me looking angry.
"what?" i say trying to think of what ive done and also thinking 'my god, get a breath mint'
then he explodes!! starts shouting at me saying im selfish etc! i try explaining that i didnt know it was fathers day but noooo blatantly ignored. "you remember your birthday because you get presents, you know when easter is because you get eggs..." i then try to say that i dont actually know when the hell easter is and when the eggs appear i just eat them without caring about when easter actually is as im not religious and do not care. i also mention that i know when his birthday is "ohh but i never got a card for that either, i dont want you here...blah blah blah (same old shit)" saying i dont get him stuff on fathers day or christmas or anything.
hold on a second somethings wrong here....you freely admit you dont like me and ive told you many a time how much i hate you yet you still expect presents?? HAH!! you dont buy any fucking person in the family anything!! MUM buys the presents for phils parents!! for mothers day and fathers day and for birthdays and christmasses. MUM buys mine and sarahs presents and just puts your name on the cards. MUM has even bought her own bday/christmas presents for herself and signed them from you so it looks like youve actually done something decent for once!!
no youll never be a decent human being will you? you have a part time job and youre 50. youll be retired soon and youll have saved no money and i wont be the one giving you any. you are the selfish one you fucking prick. youll probably be dead before you retire anyway. your so fat you look like your heading for a heart attack, you spend all your wages on alcohol which you drink religiously every night until your drunk then fuck off to bed and you go through god knows how many cigarettes!! and your too much of a lard arse to smoke them outside! i mean sarahs 12 she shouldnt be being exposed to that much second hand smoke. your basically shortening everyones lifespan. your also horribly violent and agressive. you deny any violence but my ex ben saw you punch me in the face. im not scared of you any more. your just a pathetic little man who makes himself feel big by trying to beat up and intimidate your own children and wife!! well you make me sick and if i could i would slit your throat and laugh in your face while i do it. its what you deserve you vile vile man!! or should i say boy seeing as your nothing like a real man.

wheeeew had to let some steam off so i dont end up screaming at him and getting beaten or upsetting mum. i dont want to upset her. i love my mum. i deny ever having a father. your dead to me phil.

oh yeahh happy fathers day you prick

to those that have decent fathers enjoy it and have a nice day. spend some time with your families as yours isnt falling apart >

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHH COME TO ME!!!

i nearly died on my way home from work today!
theres this guy.....he looks like dean from supernatural or the killer in my bloody valentine if youve seen that. in other words ...... GORGEOUS!!!!
i have seen him round town a few times and screamed excitedly at rhi about it. this time was better!!! i dont know what was wrong with me but i was a particularly insanely talkative mood. maybe it was the heat or the epic walk from work to home after a shift of me rushing from room to room so i could get it all done. anyways i was walking by the top of school and who ran down the hill next to mine? the dean lookalike ive been half-stalking. well i havent but i do look out for him. maybe that is stalking. i dont know lol but i gave him a sort of half arsed smile which probably made me look like a twat. he stopped and said hi! i was like hmmm wtf do i sayyy?
what did i come out with? well im an idiot and im not smooth with words at all so my reply to "hi" was "omg you look like dean from supernatural!!!" (high pitched voice and everything) well i thought id just made myself look worse than a twilight fangirl (like thats possible!) lol but apparently not!! he grinned at me and it was amazing! and he said he gets it alot and ironically his name is sam.
(for those that dont watch supernatural, in the programme deans brother is sam) this amused me. i laughed and then he said he had to go and ran off with his headphones in. i watched his sweet arse go then happily walked up my hill :)

anyways in currently waiting for ash dawson. my dawsy!!! lol or as hes also known - jimmy (he looks a bit like the old school computer game character earth worm jim) i havent seen him in what feels like years!! its at least one year anyway lol cz i was with ben last time ash was up and now ive just split with keith after about 10 months so yeah its been a looooooooooooooong time!! i miss his face!! i miss matts face too!!! but hes looking after the cat. theyre like a gay couple.....only......not gay? ash is apparently not far away now :) lloyd is coming to see us aswell. i havent seen him in aaages either!!! that silly boy :) eeeeeeeeeeee im really excited lol

the feeling of this rusty hair on my saladfingers......
ash my hair isnt rusty just because its brown ><
ahhh memories, such beautiful things :)
i must go and make sure i am truely ready for this magic time :)

my little drawing yeyyy

nom nom its sideways but im happy with it lol :) so i thought id post it

happy birthday vikki

its vikkis birthday today so im meeting her to say hellos and whatnot. thankfully its sunny today yeys!! i shall roam the streets in my skirt that barely covers my bum and my hat that i stole of brad. mwahahaha
yeahhh i also wish to pull!! lol want some fun. not a relationship until i feel ive found someone worth it. but yeah im starting to get withdrawal symptoms. lack of affection!! lol and its not even been a week >< epic fail
anyhows only a small ramble atm as i need to mish off to meet vikki and charlie nows :)

i love lamp

ive forgotten which room at my work it is but the lamp is very entertaining!! its touch sensitive and makes me excited!! lol
I LOVE LAMP!!
but do i really love lamp or am i just saying it because i saw it?
i love lamp! I LOVE LAMP!!! ahh anchorman :)

hmm im on google maps :)

56 Netherend Rd, Penrith, Cumbria CA11 8, UK
then go left a bit until you see the blue car and a person at the bottom of the garden its me when i had black hair!! yeyys lol

R.I.P...... D!!
you fought hard but its time to sleep now :)

random shmit

well how do i start this ramble today?
lets start sonisphere! im still trying to arrange it. brads got the day off but doesnt know about moneys, i have moneys etc and a ticket on the way, just need bus ticket. dave needs to fix his iphone and then see if he has to sell his guitar or not to be able to go :/ im not going on my own! nooooo way!
now my birthdayy!!!! im going to be 18 lol another milestone in my life :) i shall be hoe-ing it up and wearing basically underwear as it is a pimps and hoes party! woop! still need id though so thats a bastard! looking at outfits for my birthday and getting mucho excited. its on the 7th of august and i cannot wait!!
hannahs birthday is after mine and shes having a tuxedo and tiara party so need to be all dressed up fancy and get myself a lal tiara to wear lol but yeah im looking at loads of outfits for both parties and getting so overexcited its unbelievable!!
dan hasnt wrote me back on facebook :/ that kinda blows. and he doesnt have a phone so i cant ring him and bully him. was thinking about keith today, i just miss talking to him. i want to work to be mates. but meh, i dont know if he would want to. might invite him for a drink sometime n see.
hmmm i really want to start designing my tattoos so i will at some point do that. also planning piercings <3 ahh i cant wait for money. ill put pics of my designs and my outfits that i choose on here so if anyone actually reads my ramblings then they can comment :) yeyys now im back to facebook and planning my id. neeeeeeowm work tomorrow then a day off yeeyyyyy

ooooooh and ash is up on friday night for the weekend :) i miss his face, and matts face. i want to see pirate ash again and smush his face :) mwahahahaha!!!!!!