i fuck you to make the pain go away

if you read the title and thought "oooh" then its entirely possible you will be disappointed as its not about sex., hehe

i  have actually just re-discovered a song i have not heard in far too long thanks to frances lane! :)

*pauses so anyone actually reading this can work out what it is*

give up/got it? 

its marilyn manson para-noir. for anyone scoffing or turning their nose up......GET OUT! lol i love marilyn manson. no that does not make me a goth, it means i like good music instead of hamstery voiced chav shit. that crap is just noise.

anyway on to the reason it came back to me after so long: i am due to do a shoot with frances lane eeeeep! aswell as the very lovely, very stunning chezz reed :) and a bit with the little polish wonder maya trubas! 

i say only a bit with maya as the work frances likes to do is fetish and erotica. so not really for under 18 people to do. maya (the gayface) is unfortunately 16 :( though it will be ok as soon as i invent a time machine!) me and chezz on the other hand are both 18 and over so we can do more erotic picz involving boobies and whatnot.

the shoot shall be on thursday of this week at maya and xanders place. i shall have to get in touch with chezz and ask what time she will be popping up! we are to wear nice underwear and it shall be a dirty, sexy shoot. i couldnt be more excited!! she said we should listen to: master and servant by depeche mode and para-noir and golden age of grotesque by marilyn manson to get an idea of what the shoot will be like. 

sooooooo.........im so bloody excited!!!!! hehehe

awkward turtle

this is not just going to be a page so i could show you >awkward turtle< if you didnt know it. 

but if you dont know what it is then its that.

i have decided i am a bad influence as i proceed to go out into town with "my son" and get him and everyone else including myself really rather drunk. 

this is my son for those who dont know:

his name is nathan broadhurst.

why when i typed that did fight club pop into my head?
that part where theyre all round the table after bob (bob had bitch tits) got shot in the head? "his name is robert paulson, his name is robert paulson......."
yes, that is really how my mind works.

anyways, me and nathan have kinda got a weekly ritual now. every wednesday we shall go to the white horse for push the button and £2 a drink. its great. push the button you win extra drinks or half price rounds and whatnot! then we possibly venture over to the wolfe if we aren't skint, then dissaperate at random times. (yes, we appear and disappear just like the people out of harry potter. that was not a complete grammatical error!)

week 1: this involved me, sonny boy, helen and rob.

 this is rob trying to "hitler" nathan.
i dont have a pic of helen from week 1.
anyways we got fairly merry and played some silly drinking games.
bada-ba!bada-ba! bada-boom!! yes, they are silly words involved in a game that also includes hand gestures.
there is also a game where you randomly point at someone and shout "DRINK" and they must drink!
then there was a game with a tablecloth as nathan is silly and spilt beer everywhere! (he gets it from his mother) he got a tablecloth to mop it all up and some crazy game ensued! we started lobbing said soggy cloth at each other and if you didnt catch it you had to drink. needless to say, there were a lot of face shots and a few sore eyes!! rachel and stu appeared at some point but they were incredibly gay and didnt stay out long at all!! you guys suck!

week 2: this involved me, dan, james, nathan, helen and chris.

james wood

helen webb and dan latus

chris saxton

 we also found a few randomers who i knew and some i didnt. but yeahh was a brilliant night. we all met at the white horse and the drinking and joking started, we played the "drink" *pointing finger* with olympic rules. meaning when you got pointed at (dun dun duuuun) you had to drink using your left hand or you had to down your drink. well this was fun. we hung in whitehorse for a while then decided on the wolfe. we wandered over *elevater music for effect* and got ourself split up a bit. this random guy called phil appeared out of nowhere and we caught a kyle! nathan hugged andy (bleurgh) after saying he wanted to punch him in the face. this was rather sickening but amusing to me. when will my boy learn? silly little drunkard with his fail beard. well anyways we appeared at the wolfe in our droves and as far as i remember we had a laugh. i found some new amusing people, got started on at least twice and almost peed myself when i saw the ex get with my mates housemate. oh the hilarity. then at the end of the night i got walked home by peck and had about a two hour drunken conversation outside my house in the rain. must have been a good night because i dont remember much at all!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=89346&id=1528239204   <- piccitchawers!!! yes, that is a severely retarded way of saying "pictures"
one more thing.................

AWKWARD TURTLE!!!!

i love my lil boy lol

OMG BEST TOP EVER!!

had to just point it out :)
anchorman is a very silly film. watch it!

I LOVE LAMP

that is all.

happy times and mothers birthday

im in such a good mood. i actually love (most of) my life! except the fact that i have a really crap immune system. may go to doctors and get a blood test. though i would hate that so very much. but i am ill like......all the time so it would maybe help? i dont know. 

anywayys onto the happy place.........

1. i have a fairly stable job at a bupa care home as a cleaner and im waiting to progress to care. may apply for a bar job in a pub somewhere though. i like bar work.

2. i have some great yet, mentally deficient friends and i love them muchly!!!

3. i am currently going out with a guy that i am crazy about, even though i dont see him as much as id like. hes someone i trust completely and have known for a few years.

4. my dads not drinking half as much as he used to so theres been no violence and he seems calmer.

5. mother should be in a good mood as it is now her birthday, though that could be cause for bad moods aswell

6. i have my appetite back completely. eaten a bacon sarnie, subway meatball thing and burger and chips today as well as a bag of crisps. may not seem like much but i tend to starve myself

7. made up with some old friends who didn't deserve my bitchiness, though i still stand by the fact they were in the wrong, i over-reacted

8. going to get rachel to cut my hair again at some point then im going to dye it pretty colours when i have money eeeep!

well yeah........theres probably well...... definitely more but i wont go on too much. i will add in a funny photo or something. 

ah that reminds me, i went to mayas the other day and found gas masks and wigs and stuff, it was fun playing with them whilst slightly drunk :) and at chezz's whilst having a bit of  a girly hair bleaching day i found a big red wig, that was funny. oh noes i are ginger!!!! 

aww little mummy is opening her cards and prezzies and just bashed me on the head for writing things in her card! at least i never put her picture in the herald!!!

<- gingerness

                                   piiiiiiink ->

gasmasks :)

and heres a random picture of me drunk and passed out on my mate mikes sofa which paul kindly put on facebook for me:

oh noes giant ramble!!

well its been an eventful couple of weeks. random things have happened, most of which i find amusing. some was just my own stupidity. well people heres the lowdown:
as most people know, i was going out with andrew western for about 3 months-ish. we were horrendously on and off. we had countless arguments about stupid things. he always made me feel like it was my fault, or that i was stupid because i didnt understand some things because i dont seem to think the same as other people. i made the mistake of telling him very personal things about me just to have them used against me and laughed at when we had a breakup or argument. towards the end i just started feeling drained and weak. just really not myself to be honest. instead of the usual happy, bouncy kayleigh here i was falling asleep on sofas, bein abnormally grouchy, crying over nothing, not wanting to do anything but stop inside.......the list goes on. finally i got rid after hearing what he had actually been saying behind my back when we had breakups. so yeah.....free from him now.
well....so i thought. i thought i would get rid of him and be free to get on with my life with my friends and my job and whatnot. thought id chosen the right friends but obviously not. i still cared about andy after we broke up, didnt love him, just cared. didnt want anything bad to happen to him or anything like that.....
suddenly all of 2 days after we had broken up i see on facebook that my supposed best mate georgina is in a relationship. so i ring her and ask who all happy like "yey you have a bf" and she says its a secret and theyre keeping it on the down low. then i see on facebook mobile shes with andy. hmmm great. he continues to hurt me even after weve broken up. now shes doin it too after i thought i could trust her.
after all georgina said about vikki going for her ex (after theyd been split up for bloody months) she turns round and does it to me!! "oh friends shouldnt do that, i cant beleive shes done this to me, shes one of my best friends, i still love him, this always happens to me, i wouldnt do it to anyone, blah blah blaaaaahhhhh" yeah obviously it was all shit. so to you my short, chubby, slutty ex-friend......i hope you get what you deserve :) which will probably be clap if you havent got it already. tends to happen if you sleep with a different guy everyday.
after all this i go to the foyer to get my telly back, yeah i lent her a fucking telly and a dvd/video player thing. well mike came with me. we go up and the stuffs outside her room. mike goes for the telly and i pick up the dvd/video player. typically the bag its in is snapped so i have to basically hug it to carry it. (meaning my hands were completely full) i turn to mike and say "that had better be everything, im not coming back to this whore's house" at this point jade sticks her scrawny little arse into the works. i know its not really kosher for me to call people scrawny but shes a hell of a lot smaller than me yet doesnt seem to think so. anyway she pipes up "what did you say?" trying to be "hard" or whatever. i calmly yet cockily turn and say "i was talking to mike not you" me and mike are walking down the corridor of the foyer struggling with the telly and whatnot. then jade flys out of nowhere saying "dont insult the foyerrrr" i was slightly confused as well....i didnt? and she grabs my face and smashes my head against a wall twice then starts hitting me in the face/side of the head. i turned my head away as i hate being punched in the nose. then i walked off to the lift and waved at jade as the doors closed.
after that she decided to give me shit on facebook, threatening me and trying to insult me. though its funny as people stuck up for me. namely anna. she was brilliant! insulting jades intelligence and saying she looked like a crack head and assorted other things.
uuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.................................
im back with keith. which some people have called me stupid and shook their heads at me for but most people have said if it makes me happy then go for it! which is what im going to do. i think we were good together before so why wouldnt we be again? weve already done more than we did before. that sounds wrong but what i mean is last time we barely went out and about. this time weve been to the cinema a few times, been out in carlisle and gone for  crazy walk up a mountain. generally having a good time with him. should be seeing him again tonight so looking forward to that. may be going to the cinema again. but i dont care i just want to see him. he makes me happy and if anyone doesnt like it then........fuck you :)

i am alive!!!! just encase you thought i wasnt

hmmmmmmmmmm.........................................................not entirely sure what to write.
if youve been desperately missing my blog and worrying about the lack of kayleigh then fear no more!! i have returned to let more random rants and ramblings flow from my brain and through my fingertips into the computer!! wow its like magic! i wish i could write like terry pratchett. he is an amazingly talented man.
anyhow, i am not dead :) though ive been feeling it recently. been arguing and over-tired. collapsing randomly, having coughing fits and chest pains, sneezing..well, erupting! generally not good.

ive decided that im a little bit weird. i seem to chat shit......a lot! today i preyed on a girl i barely know. her status was something about someone going into her house and only stealing underwear??? so me being ...... rather strange owned up to it, said i was drunk and thought it would be funny. well then i thought oh dear im not gonna get abuse or nything am i? im sick in the head and it was a joke lol then her name popped up on chat and she started chatting to me (obviously) but she joined in with my madness! yesssh i felt very peculiar when she asked for her underwear back and i told her i would enjoy sniffing them for a while longer and when i said i would keep a pair as a momento but oh well lol thats just my silly sense of humour. i blame the guys i hung with through school. ross, dan, simon......you are all such bad influences :P

erm........my hair now has purple in it >woooop< and i have 2 new piercings. nose and nipple :)
so my total piercedness count is 3 left earlobe, 3 right earlobe,  1 top right ear, eyebrow, nose, middle of my lip, micro in my chest, nipple (guess which one lol) and navel. though keep in mind once upon a time i had surfaces in my hips. they were lush and i loved them but they were bloody awkward!!  i want another tattoo now aswell. "unrequited love kills when all hes after is mindless thrills, i want something to last because im through living in the past" i think. i want writing across my ribs anyway and thats a poem i made up. i may end up getting meaningful song lyrics or making up another poem. oh well we shall see :)
that may be it for now.............yes, yes it is. goodbyeeee!!!