hmmmmm

making a new facebook is a pain in the arse :(
i am trying to re-add most of my friends but keep getting confused as to who ive added already and who i am missing, need to transfer all my photos across aswell seeing as they have finally re-activated my other account! but im still getting rid of that account as i have far too many people that i don't actually know on there!

i have the doctors on monday. that should be fun- not! i hate the bloody place, i always feel more and more ill as it gets closer. im pretty sure its an actual phobia. i remember going to carlisle hospital at one point last year, feeling fine but too nervous in bens car, then as soon as we were actually outside the hospital, throwing up ribena in a bush :/ hopefully i will not be too bad on monday. i just want to know whats wrong with me, i feel down all the time, im always tired, no motivation...i don't know just generally crap. im hoping its nothing serious anyway, might just need to get more exercise and eat more fruit and veg like keith said or i may be something worse like diabetic or anemic....i dont know. just want to get a blood test and find out. well, i dont want one but i think i may need one.

im currently wrapped in a blanket on the sofa watching two and a half men, trying to keep my mind off how crap i feel. no, wait its just turned to scrubs. anyways my throat is killing me today and im feeling rather sickish. my stomachs really hurting me too. *greatest conversation ever* <- the todd. it had to be put in!
urgh. anyways think im gonna curl up and read terry pratchett.
tatty bye

facebook whyyy?

hmmmm how peculiar......
i have been on facebook on my phone all day yet when i actually try logging in on the laptop as soon as kyle tries to talk to me *wa wa waaaaa* or some other depressing noise. facebook decides to argue with me, not letting me type back then turns round and says a big fat "fuck off" telling me my account is disabled!!
i am not entirely sure why. i don't think ive done anything that would result in me getting kicked of facebook but im annoyed. it may be because i had a mild (yes mild) go at jasons ex girl. he told me she was annoying him so i said to leave him alone and insullted her intelligence after she had typed back a few times. to be fair, she was completely illiterate and it took me a while to decode what she had actually typed to me. it was like reading hieroglyphics! no, tell a lie, they make more sense. i cant stand people that blatantly stupid!! oh well ill just make a new account if they dont let me back bloody onto my normal facebook. ill be extremely pissed off if that means ive lost all my photos though! must make a backup folder somewhere if they let me back on.

grrrrr stupid bloody facebook!!!!

pictures and shmit

ok so the last time i wrote my blog was just before my photo shoot with chezz by fran.
well i am rather pleased to say i enjoyed it muchly even though i was rather ill as i had the plague........
no not really i had tonsillitis but i did rather feel like death. it was a great experience! ill put a few pics from the shoot on the bottom of this post and leave the link......somewhere. probably near the pics or something. i dont know! argh! my head!
anyways...what else has been going down? ummmm ive done my care training, though i was abused by the two "higher-powers" doing it...i was used as a demonstrator. dont get me wrong, i was rather amused but ooh the embarrassment! need to fill out some little booklets now which i completely forgot to do! d'oh! shall do them when ive wrote this as i feel the need. or i may just read terry pratchett: making money. or have a nap...or sort out tonight....i am unsure really of what to do! mindfuck!
its been halloween, that was fun, got rather...well.....completely shitfaced with the son and random other crew whilst dressed as frankenfurter from the rocky horror show, though the majority of people just thought i was a hooker....oh well apparently i cant pull off being a transsexual transvestite from transylvania. who knew?

i have also changed my appearance yet again. i now have short purple-black hair with a pink fringe. i love it! though i do seem to keep getting a really cold breeze down the back of my neck! ill live though! not sure what else to say really......
oh for anyone vaguely interested i shall be doing another shoot at some point! fran did post something on her website saying it was coming soon! eeep! the excitement begins again! hmm bizzare bondage and clingfilm apparently! im not joking peeps see for yourself: http://getkinky.us/franceslaneerotica/?p=922 hee hee

umm yeah so i think its linkey photoey time huh?
ok so link to mine and chezz's shoot is here: http://getkinky.us/franceslaneerotica/?page_id=911&psmash-gallery=63
said shoot involves pics like these:

so look if you dareeeeee.......it was a fun shoot involving lesbianism and bondage. i cant wait to do another fun shoot. it was great that my first one was with chezz, ive known her for ages, im comfortable around her, shes cool as fuck and shes stunning!  just a shame i was diseased at the time! feeling miles better now though.







onto halloweens outfit and new hair briefly then i must retire:

yey purpley pink spikey shortness!!!!
though you cant really see in tht pic........

there. that ones shows the spikey awesomeness!


last picture now:

halloweebles :3



now im off into a world that for some short time will involve reality untill i do something silly to make it more interesting

byes!

i fuck you to make the pain go away

if you read the title and thought "oooh" then its entirely possible you will be disappointed as its not about sex., hehe

i  have actually just re-discovered a song i have not heard in far too long thanks to frances lane! :)

*pauses so anyone actually reading this can work out what it is*

give up/got it? 

its marilyn manson para-noir. for anyone scoffing or turning their nose up......GET OUT! lol i love marilyn manson. no that does not make me a goth, it means i like good music instead of hamstery voiced chav shit. that crap is just noise.

anyway on to the reason it came back to me after so long: i am due to do a shoot with frances lane eeeeep! aswell as the very lovely, very stunning chezz reed :) and a bit with the little polish wonder maya trubas! 

i say only a bit with maya as the work frances likes to do is fetish and erotica. so not really for under 18 people to do. maya (the gayface) is unfortunately 16 :( though it will be ok as soon as i invent a time machine!) me and chezz on the other hand are both 18 and over so we can do more erotic picz involving boobies and whatnot.

the shoot shall be on thursday of this week at maya and xanders place. i shall have to get in touch with chezz and ask what time she will be popping up! we are to wear nice underwear and it shall be a dirty, sexy shoot. i couldnt be more excited!! she said we should listen to: master and servant by depeche mode and para-noir and golden age of grotesque by marilyn manson to get an idea of what the shoot will be like. 

sooooooo.........im so bloody excited!!!!! hehehe

awkward turtle

this is not just going to be a page so i could show you >awkward turtle< if you didnt know it. 

but if you dont know what it is then its that.

i have decided i am a bad influence as i proceed to go out into town with "my son" and get him and everyone else including myself really rather drunk. 

this is my son for those who dont know:

his name is nathan broadhurst.

why when i typed that did fight club pop into my head?
that part where theyre all round the table after bob (bob had bitch tits) got shot in the head? "his name is robert paulson, his name is robert paulson......."
yes, that is really how my mind works.

anyways, me and nathan have kinda got a weekly ritual now. every wednesday we shall go to the white horse for push the button and £2 a drink. its great. push the button you win extra drinks or half price rounds and whatnot! then we possibly venture over to the wolfe if we aren't skint, then dissaperate at random times. (yes, we appear and disappear just like the people out of harry potter. that was not a complete grammatical error!)

week 1: this involved me, sonny boy, helen and rob.

 this is rob trying to "hitler" nathan.
i dont have a pic of helen from week 1.
anyways we got fairly merry and played some silly drinking games.
bada-ba!bada-ba! bada-boom!! yes, they are silly words involved in a game that also includes hand gestures.
there is also a game where you randomly point at someone and shout "DRINK" and they must drink!
then there was a game with a tablecloth as nathan is silly and spilt beer everywhere! (he gets it from his mother) he got a tablecloth to mop it all up and some crazy game ensued! we started lobbing said soggy cloth at each other and if you didnt catch it you had to drink. needless to say, there were a lot of face shots and a few sore eyes!! rachel and stu appeared at some point but they were incredibly gay and didnt stay out long at all!! you guys suck!

week 2: this involved me, dan, james, nathan, helen and chris.

james wood

helen webb and dan latus

chris saxton

 we also found a few randomers who i knew and some i didnt. but yeahh was a brilliant night. we all met at the white horse and the drinking and joking started, we played the "drink" *pointing finger* with olympic rules. meaning when you got pointed at (dun dun duuuun) you had to drink using your left hand or you had to down your drink. well this was fun. we hung in whitehorse for a while then decided on the wolfe. we wandered over *elevater music for effect* and got ourself split up a bit. this random guy called phil appeared out of nowhere and we caught a kyle! nathan hugged andy (bleurgh) after saying he wanted to punch him in the face. this was rather sickening but amusing to me. when will my boy learn? silly little drunkard with his fail beard. well anyways we appeared at the wolfe in our droves and as far as i remember we had a laugh. i found some new amusing people, got started on at least twice and almost peed myself when i saw the ex get with my mates housemate. oh the hilarity. then at the end of the night i got walked home by peck and had about a two hour drunken conversation outside my house in the rain. must have been a good night because i dont remember much at all!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=89346&id=1528239204   <- piccitchawers!!! yes, that is a severely retarded way of saying "pictures"
one more thing.................

AWKWARD TURTLE!!!!

i love my lil boy lol

OMG BEST TOP EVER!!

had to just point it out :)
anchorman is a very silly film. watch it!

I LOVE LAMP

that is all.

happy times and mothers birthday

im in such a good mood. i actually love (most of) my life! except the fact that i have a really crap immune system. may go to doctors and get a blood test. though i would hate that so very much. but i am ill like......all the time so it would maybe help? i dont know. 

anywayys onto the happy place.........

1. i have a fairly stable job at a bupa care home as a cleaner and im waiting to progress to care. may apply for a bar job in a pub somewhere though. i like bar work.

2. i have some great yet, mentally deficient friends and i love them muchly!!!

3. i am currently going out with a guy that i am crazy about, even though i dont see him as much as id like. hes someone i trust completely and have known for a few years.

4. my dads not drinking half as much as he used to so theres been no violence and he seems calmer.

5. mother should be in a good mood as it is now her birthday, though that could be cause for bad moods aswell

6. i have my appetite back completely. eaten a bacon sarnie, subway meatball thing and burger and chips today as well as a bag of crisps. may not seem like much but i tend to starve myself

7. made up with some old friends who didn't deserve my bitchiness, though i still stand by the fact they were in the wrong, i over-reacted

8. going to get rachel to cut my hair again at some point then im going to dye it pretty colours when i have money eeeep!

well yeah........theres probably well...... definitely more but i wont go on too much. i will add in a funny photo or something. 

ah that reminds me, i went to mayas the other day and found gas masks and wigs and stuff, it was fun playing with them whilst slightly drunk :) and at chezz's whilst having a bit of  a girly hair bleaching day i found a big red wig, that was funny. oh noes i are ginger!!!! 

aww little mummy is opening her cards and prezzies and just bashed me on the head for writing things in her card! at least i never put her picture in the herald!!!

<- gingerness

                                   piiiiiiink ->

gasmasks :)

and heres a random picture of me drunk and passed out on my mate mikes sofa which paul kindly put on facebook for me: