i am still bubbling with excitement about my 18th! cant wait for my passport to arrive so i have some i.d. ive said this before but its uber-embarrasing to be turned away from a pub when you actually are 18 :/ sooo its not going to happen to meeeee! cant wait for me and my friends to party it up bigstyle! plus theres a meal happening some point next week (my birthday week <3) so that should be good. nommy!!
wants tattoo ^_^
i wants it, i wants it, i wants it!!!
i must MUST design the cherry one for my shoulder so i can find out ho much both will cost, then go for the cheaper option, as you do. ooooor i might go for the bleeding star logo somewhere else so i stil have the option of each tattoo.
so that would be, cupcake on my hip, cherry on my shoulder or bleeding star logo somewhere to be confirmed. must get designing!!!
also want corsetting but shhhhh, mother would HATE me for that. not that id be too bothered as its what i want to do with my body.
deided im going to quit smoking, wish me luck! i know as soon as im 18 ill go mad and be like yey! i can buy them myself now! thatll suck because ill just keep spending money! i dont like smoking because andy doesnt smoke and it must be like kissing an ashtray, which i dont expect would be too nice.
met keith yesterday for all of a few minutes while i did my favour for chewter. i was waiting by b n m then realised i was stood in an ants nest!!! they were running everywhere, crawling up my legs and on my feet, i started screaming and dancing about to get them off, thankfully no-one was there to see this craziness. i shuffled away and coolly lent on a bollard thing to act like that episode had not happened just as keith came round the corner. he'd cut his hair again. i never liked it short. was nice to see him and have a little chat, though he looked ill :(
im talking a lot today! still waiting for nathan to come in, yesterday he fell asleep and went to hospital but he promised he would be in today. well we shall see!!
this is a page from frances lanes blog, it really upset me and pissed me off, read it and share your opinions, whoever did this is fucked up and evil!....http://frannylane.blogspot.com/2010/07/my-brother.html
things like this should not happen!!!
speaking of frances lane, im a little upset that she hasnt got back to me about my email yet. she obviously has bigger things to worry about right now so i understand. maybe shes waiting until i am actually 18? i dont know. maybe she just doesnt want me.
ho-hum my lifes a little hectic at the moment but i wouldnt have it any other way.....wait, id be taller. yes thatll do. i have amazing friends who i love to pieces, i have a strange yet......well yeah a strange boyfriend, a good job that i can go places in and im generally really happy at the moment so woooo! anyways i bid you adieu!!
Tuesday, 27 July 2010
Monday, 26 July 2010
excitableness
it is exactly 4 days until i get paid, then i am going to carlisle and booking my tattoo :) also buying blue and pink dye for my hair. dragging andy along, though probably not around shops really as he'll act like a plum ><
its 10 days until my 18th, im fairly excited! hopefully ill have booked my tattoo by then and be waiting in anticipation for that. may be having a meal with nabab and cheryl. andy aswell of course! that should be good. my birthday party is a pimps and hoes night. maybe pre-drinking at andys first, but just a few of us, then hitting the town. my passport should come sometime this week so ill definitely have i.d in time and wont look retarded whilst i get rejected from pubs. meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep <- dont ask, i dont know. andy is at work and im at home bored.
need to ring the ex soon....lucky me! really cba to speak to him or see him. im doing a favour for chewter seeing as keith seems to hate him. last time chewter rang him he screamed "fuck off" down the phone which i found hillarious!! sooo not looking forward to seeing him as i havent seen him since the morning we broke up. oh and i have a hiccie on my neck thanks to andy, so i may be mildly amused. i still love ryan for what he said about keiths new other half. what a funny boy he is.
ryan bless him needs to be selfish. i wont explain why but what hes doings wrong!! what an arab!!
anyhowws i suppose i should kind of get ready as nathans meant to be in soon, yey!! haven't seen that loveable sillyhead in a while. wish the damn weather would sort itself out. oh well
gooodbyyyyeeeee
its 10 days until my 18th, im fairly excited! hopefully ill have booked my tattoo by then and be waiting in anticipation for that. may be having a meal with nabab and cheryl. andy aswell of course! that should be good. my birthday party is a pimps and hoes night. maybe pre-drinking at andys first, but just a few of us, then hitting the town. my passport should come sometime this week so ill definitely have i.d in time and wont look retarded whilst i get rejected from pubs. meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep <- dont ask, i dont know. andy is at work and im at home bored.
need to ring the ex soon....lucky me! really cba to speak to him or see him. im doing a favour for chewter seeing as keith seems to hate him. last time chewter rang him he screamed "fuck off" down the phone which i found hillarious!! sooo not looking forward to seeing him as i havent seen him since the morning we broke up. oh and i have a hiccie on my neck thanks to andy, so i may be mildly amused. i still love ryan for what he said about keiths new other half. what a funny boy he is.
ryan bless him needs to be selfish. i wont explain why but what hes doings wrong!! what an arab!!
anyhowws i suppose i should kind of get ready as nathans meant to be in soon, yey!! haven't seen that loveable sillyhead in a while. wish the damn weather would sort itself out. oh well
gooodbyyyyeeeee
Sunday, 25 July 2010
i fear i may implode!
its cockys birthday today....happy birthday btw!! finally 18, even though your t-total so werent waiting to be able to drink.....but yeyyy!! just over a week and ill be in 18land too. just hoping my passport comes in time! fingers crossed!!!!
it was cockys party yesterday, had a good time. was a small gathering. there was about 7 of us
hmmm a mysterious knock at the door!!! i wonder who that is......
but yeah had a good time, played on smash brothers, had some good cake and a few drinks. pics are here: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=66876&id=1528239204
there are many crazy pics and videos on my facebook. the one from cockys birthday where i stroke a cow is amusing. well it was very amusing to me at the time as i was drunk and had never touched a cow before. that was a good day.
now to the imploding bit......
(the door was apparently for my sister so yey i didnt have to move)
i am soooooooo bored, im watching two and a half men which is not being as amusing as usual sadly. waiting for a call of chewter the forgetful lump. but hes probably not ringing me til half 7 so i have a while yet. im tired, though i got plenty of drunken sleep. so im confused. looking forward to going to andys tonight and watching 'the crazies' looks .....interesting. i want something to do, ive decided on my tattoo design and its perfected except the retarded stars. im not very good at star-drawing.
anyways, what pissed me off today was a young chav. this particular breed of human makes my blood boil anyway, let alone when the little retards decide to insult you. apparently im a freak and im also emo? well i could not care less about the chavs viewing me as a freak as i think the very same about them. but calling me emo because i have a fringe, that was a stroke of genius. chavs are so clever arnt they?
this one in particular started off completely illiterate and then when i took him up on this, facebook chat went silent for about 10 minutes, then all of a sudden, said chav had pulled some big words out of the air! well i found this amusing as he tried to tell me he would do so much better im life, that he was at school and getting a*s apparently. well my view of chavs are as filthy, smelly, burberry wearing, illiterate fools who spend their days eating out of bins, smoking copious amounts, taking any drug possible, drinking in public places and generally being annoying. so yeah this little chav pissed me off and now i want to punch/eat him.
i have a funny obsession with eating things/people at the moment and im not sure why. ive been overeating horrifically but thankfully due to my crazilly high metabolism i put on no weight whatsoever. but i also told andy the other day i would eat him in public, which probably sounded crazy but i am so i don't care.
im happy i can actually be myself with a guy. it sucks when you cant. you just sit and be quiet and hide who you are. you know what i mean. but with andy im just silly and happy and all over the place! his mum cheryl is also uber cool. though she is just like a second mother which is a little scary but yeah.
another thing pissing my right off is father as usual. i hate that prick and i want to slit his throat, but hell probably die or something soon anyway so never mind. he smookes like 40 a day, drinks every night until hes drunk, hes abusive, aggressive and lazy, plus hes huge so hell be putting a lot of strain on his heart. just die already you selfish prik!!!!
anyhowss so ends my ramble on as hes back down and will most likely want to continue watching his film on here. ho-hum back to two and a half men then i think. hopefully chewter will remember to ring me, he is a bit stupid. to infinity and beyoooooooond!!!!!
it was cockys party yesterday, had a good time. was a small gathering. there was about 7 of us
hmmm a mysterious knock at the door!!! i wonder who that is......
but yeah had a good time, played on smash brothers, had some good cake and a few drinks. pics are here: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=66876&id=1528239204
there are many crazy pics and videos on my facebook. the one from cockys birthday where i stroke a cow is amusing. well it was very amusing to me at the time as i was drunk and had never touched a cow before. that was a good day.
now to the imploding bit......
(the door was apparently for my sister so yey i didnt have to move)
i am soooooooo bored, im watching two and a half men which is not being as amusing as usual sadly. waiting for a call of chewter the forgetful lump. but hes probably not ringing me til half 7 so i have a while yet. im tired, though i got plenty of drunken sleep. so im confused. looking forward to going to andys tonight and watching 'the crazies' looks .....interesting. i want something to do, ive decided on my tattoo design and its perfected except the retarded stars. im not very good at star-drawing.
anyways, what pissed me off today was a young chav. this particular breed of human makes my blood boil anyway, let alone when the little retards decide to insult you. apparently im a freak and im also emo? well i could not care less about the chavs viewing me as a freak as i think the very same about them. but calling me emo because i have a fringe, that was a stroke of genius. chavs are so clever arnt they?
this one in particular started off completely illiterate and then when i took him up on this, facebook chat went silent for about 10 minutes, then all of a sudden, said chav had pulled some big words out of the air! well i found this amusing as he tried to tell me he would do so much better im life, that he was at school and getting a*s apparently. well my view of chavs are as filthy, smelly, burberry wearing, illiterate fools who spend their days eating out of bins, smoking copious amounts, taking any drug possible, drinking in public places and generally being annoying. so yeah this little chav pissed me off and now i want to punch/eat him.
i have a funny obsession with eating things/people at the moment and im not sure why. ive been overeating horrifically but thankfully due to my crazilly high metabolism i put on no weight whatsoever. but i also told andy the other day i would eat him in public, which probably sounded crazy but i am so i don't care.
im happy i can actually be myself with a guy. it sucks when you cant. you just sit and be quiet and hide who you are. you know what i mean. but with andy im just silly and happy and all over the place! his mum cheryl is also uber cool. though she is just like a second mother which is a little scary but yeah.
another thing pissing my right off is father as usual. i hate that prick and i want to slit his throat, but hell probably die or something soon anyway so never mind. he smookes like 40 a day, drinks every night until hes drunk, hes abusive, aggressive and lazy, plus hes huge so hell be putting a lot of strain on his heart. just die already you selfish prik!!!!
anyhowss so ends my ramble on as hes back down and will most likely want to continue watching his film on here. ho-hum back to two and a half men then i think. hopefully chewter will remember to ring me, he is a bit stupid. to infinity and beyoooooooond!!!!!
Friday, 23 July 2010
NIGHTMARE!!! aaaaand mopped.....TO DEATH!!
everybody must MUST listen to nightmare by avenged sevenfold and watch the video!! the video is soooo sad, it made me want to cry. oooh i sound like a big girls blouse! but its perfect tribute to jimmy. or "the rev" for you people that only know his stage name or only heard of his death. it is a beautiful song - well to me it is. it starts off kind of gothic, reminded me a little of nightwish (another good band, plenty of epic ballads) then it gets into it epically. nice and heavy. its great they got jimmys drumming idol mike portnoy from dream theatre to drum with avenged. though he isnt shown at all in the nightmare video, whenever a drum kit is shown its empty.anyway love love LOOOOOVE the song :)
today at work i was attacked by a GIANT black beetle. it was HUUUUUUGE!!! i was cleaning and it ran at me so i drew my mighty mop from the bucket it resides and instantly started smashing the beetle with said mop! mwahahaha!!! thats what you get for attacking me mr beetle, you pay with your life! yeah the beetle was mopped to death and i was amused and no longer feared for my life!
had a great day yesterday minus the argument me and andy had, but were fine now, its all gravy. went to castle park, found laura, her other half popple and her crazy children, roared at the children for a while, then went to macdonalds with them. the kids both got balloons so andy sulked and called the woman "ageist" poor andy :) anywaaays i should really start getting ready as ive just been pissing about on here. soooooo
chow for now x
today at work i was attacked by a GIANT black beetle. it was HUUUUUUGE!!! i was cleaning and it ran at me so i drew my mighty mop from the bucket it resides and instantly started smashing the beetle with said mop! mwahahaha!!! thats what you get for attacking me mr beetle, you pay with your life! yeah the beetle was mopped to death and i was amused and no longer feared for my life!
had a great day yesterday minus the argument me and andy had, but were fine now, its all gravy. went to castle park, found laura, her other half popple and her crazy children, roared at the children for a while, then went to macdonalds with them. the kids both got balloons so andy sulked and called the woman "ageist" poor andy :) anywaaays i should really start getting ready as ive just been pissing about on here. soooooo
chow for now x
Sunday, 18 July 2010
tattoooooooings and DAVE!!!
this is my little cupcake :) its a reminder of my past, how even the people you trust most can hurt you and its also a bright and happy look to the future. it means alot to me. this is my first tattoo design which im thinking of getting. im going to design my other two that im thinking of: the heart and the yin-yang symbol and see which i would rather. need to get them done by the end of the month though. but eeeeeeeeeeee!!! cant wait. will most likely hurt getting it done but hey!
will upload my designs. may get one of my poem.
"unrequited love kills when all hes after is mindless thrills, i want something to last because im through living in the past" ....... i dunno really.
people should listen to this: http://soundcloud.com/davekore/dead-mans-switch-davekore?utm_source=soundcloud&utm_campaign=share&utm_medium=facebook&utm_content=http://soundcloud.com/davekore/dead-mans-switch-davekore
its my mate dave. hes cool lol
Thursday, 15 July 2010
random plans and ideas
i have a cunning plan.....
well its more like a few crazy random ideas mushed together, stirred up then poured over ice for uber-coolness.
i may be going to carlisle with my boyfriends brother mr phil western to get a tattoo next month. squeeeeeeee!! very excited, must finish my designs!!!
i also need to get saving for my corsetting madness. going to get it along my side so it looks all sexual and awesomes :) should be going with sarah massey now that those gay rumours have been sorted. yeah theyre obviously not true, whoever made them up could have been a little more creative. "ohh im kayleigh and i want to beat sarah up because shes with tcharn" erm....no? she can be with whoever she wants to be with as long as shes happy.
im also going to see if i can possibly model for frances lane. its mainly fettish modelling and involves some nudity and it actually really appeals to me. you have to be 18 though so im waiting til next month. but im sending her an email explaining my situation atm. im so excited about all three of theese things and hope they all happen :)
well its more like a few crazy random ideas mushed together, stirred up then poured over ice for uber-coolness.
i may be going to carlisle with my boyfriends brother mr phil western to get a tattoo next month. squeeeeeeee!! very excited, must finish my designs!!!
i also need to get saving for my corsetting madness. going to get it along my side so it looks all sexual and awesomes :) should be going with sarah massey now that those gay rumours have been sorted. yeah theyre obviously not true, whoever made them up could have been a little more creative. "ohh im kayleigh and i want to beat sarah up because shes with tcharn" erm....no? she can be with whoever she wants to be with as long as shes happy.
im also going to see if i can possibly model for frances lane. its mainly fettish modelling and involves some nudity and it actually really appeals to me. you have to be 18 though so im waiting til next month. but im sending her an email explaining my situation atm. im so excited about all three of theese things and hope they all happen :)
Sunday, 11 July 2010
do you know what really grinds my gears??
ahhh family guy :) love that show lol
anywayyyys......
some words i hate....but still occasionally use:
DOUCHE
it means "wash" in french. therefore you saying douche makes you a fool as youre calling people a wash??? makes no sense its annoying and must get out of the youth of cumbrias minds!!
AMAZING
its a good word when used in the right context obviously. but it pisses me right off because keith used to call me that. then when we broke up he said i was again so that word kinda does my head in. i flinched when andy said it the other night.
CUTE
i swear if one more person calls me cute heads will roll!!! this is possibly my most hated word ever. who the hell looks at me and thinks "aww your cute" like im a little animal or something? puppies, kittens, babies...are cute!! im 18 next month for gods sake im not cute at all. :@
MINGE
what kind of word is minge anyway? it sounds like a dirty word. not dirty in the good way, in the disgusting unclean sort of way.
anywayyyys......
some words i hate....but still occasionally use:
DOUCHE
it means "wash" in french. therefore you saying douche makes you a fool as youre calling people a wash??? makes no sense its annoying and must get out of the youth of cumbrias minds!!
AMAZING
its a good word when used in the right context obviously. but it pisses me right off because keith used to call me that. then when we broke up he said i was again so that word kinda does my head in. i flinched when andy said it the other night.
CUTE
i swear if one more person calls me cute heads will roll!!! this is possibly my most hated word ever. who the hell looks at me and thinks "aww your cute" like im a little animal or something? puppies, kittens, babies...are cute!! im 18 next month for gods sake im not cute at all. :@
MINGE
what kind of word is minge anyway? it sounds like a dirty word. not dirty in the good way, in the disgusting unclean sort of way.
Friday, 9 July 2010
so this is what im looking like theese days, im all grown up, so full of hate
hmm so yeah thts me atm :)
i have blonde hair, its actually short but i have extensions :P my fringe is currently blue but fading so i think ill do it again. i am a piercing and tattoo lover!! i have my ear lobes pierced 3 times, one at the top of my right ear, i have my eyebrow done, belly button, chest (microdermal anchor) and lip :) i used to have my hips done with surface piercings but one ripped out and keith took the other out because i was too scared to. im 18 next month so im hoping to be getting tattoos and more piercings. ive designed some. im really looking forward to the back piece. may upload some sketches soon. i defo will when i eventually get them done :) may take a while, tattoos are expensive. may be getting corsetting on the cheap at some point :) meant to be £180 but getting it for £100 because mark likes doing them. schweeeet.
im currently taken by one mr andrew western and have been since saturday so not long but im happy. have alot of dvd nights where we just talk rubbish (well i talk rubbish lol) its nice i like it :) gonna watch 02:13 or something tonight. its meant to be saw mixed with seven so should be good.
getting ready for andys now :) taking seven along aswell even though its lloyds dvd. ive had it aaaaages though >< its brilliant. it has brad pitt in when hes still yummy :)
goodbye for now
Thursday, 8 July 2010
fave songs atm
keep listening to one song obsessively!!
HATE ME
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you
two other songs that have me obsessed are paralyzer by finger eleven and a little piece of heaven by avenged sevenfold :)
cannot stop listening to them argh!!!!! lol
well yeah yeyy :)
HATE ME
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you
two other songs that have me obsessed are paralyzer by finger eleven and a little piece of heaven by avenged sevenfold :)
cannot stop listening to them argh!!!!! lol
well yeah yeyy :)
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